…and I’ll cry if I want to.
Yes, today I am 26. I wasn’t really excited about turning 26 to begin with, but this birthday has ended up being much worse than I could have anticipated.
Shawn and I have been broken up since Saturday, and needless to say I’m not handling it well. I don’t know at this point whether its permanent or not, but all I’ve been doing for the past 5 days is crying when I get home. Yesterday I was actually okay for most of the day, but then I fell apart again after dinner. I’m not very good with handling emotions or situations like this. I can’t even distract myself with anything because I’m literally not interested in anything. If anyone has any movie or TV show suggestions send them my way, because I think video is the only thing working to distract me but I’m running out of stuff to watch lol.
Sorry this entry is such a downer. I just wish my life didn’t feel like it were falling apart. Maybe this won’t be permanent, but if it is I need to get over it and figure out how to handle things and find things that will make me happy again. *le sigh* If only my happiness weren’t contingent on another person.
Well at least I have a good excuse to post my favorite cat…
*hugs* from your name twin. That really sucks… and the fact that you still have to live together post-breakup could get pretty awkward. Keep your chin up!
thank you =) Its not too awkward (yet) since we’re still friendly…though obviously the relationship isn’t the same which sucks.
I’m sorry to hear that this happened. It was the same situation with me. I still lived with my ex for a month or so in the condo we just moved into. We were friendly towards each other, but you’re right, the relationship was different. And it was very emotional having to share a place. Maybe once you are able to move out you will find that you won’t be as emotional and can start to move on if the two of you decide it’s permanent. I wish you the best of luck with everything and if you ever want to talk to someone who just went through the exact same thing only a year ago (right after my b-day too!) then please send me an email or something.
Thanks so much for the kind words, Deanna! I do remember you going through the same thing as well…and it looks like you’re doing really well now, so I definitely have hope I can get through this too =)
I’m so sorry to hear that!!! My husband and myself had a crisis two years ago and I was about to move out. We got back together but that period when I needed to get organized but we still lived together was awful. I just wanted to move on.